Creative Writing – “Relief”

he bring forward rang. It bust the silence of my adjointhing rage. Its high piercing sound irritated me for more(prenominal) or less reason. I wanted to scream.Lisa wouldnt norm every(prenominal)y cause me to feel that way (maybe it wasnt on the dot Lisa, but she had been hold upting to me recently). As twins we were supposed to share a special bond, and usu in ally we got on really well. Despite being except four minutes older than Lisa, I often felt oddly protective of her.With curly blonde hair and brown eyes we looked t off ensemble identical, but the similarities ended on that point. Lisas favourite word was change pertly unwrapfit, new swell, new hairstyle and so on. I was calmer. I had two very coda friends Hannah and Angie, and a steady boyfriend Adam.That was another part of the reason wherefore I was at home and in such a state. I had just got to the party, by and by being held up with my friend Laura, who was upset approximately family problems.Things betwixt Adam and I had not been going well recently, and this evening he had arranged to meet me at six, so we could talk. It was nearly seven. I feared the worst, but friends do come first.However I was not nimble for the scene that met my eyes. I stood transfixed. Something sharp went straight through my heart. there stood Lisa and Adam, alone. dickens of the people closest to me, I could not believe it. I ran. A sweep upe bubble of emotion was trying in vain to hunt from with in me, but it didnt seem to know how. I could feel weeping welling up. I wanted to scream, hit someone, collapse in a hole and break down and sink into the ground all at once. hence my emotions quieted and he silent tears began rolling down my cheeks.I reached the woebegone bus stop, when the bus came that was deserted too. My whole life seemed deserted. As presently as I was home I dialled Hannahs number then the good-for-naught realisation hit me All my friends were at the party, my parents were out, my older brother Phil was out.A fresh wave of rejection, anger, betrayal and total emptiness swept all over me, and suddenly I felt very tired. I peeled come to my clothes and went to bed.How could Lisa have done that? It wasnt something she would do. Borrowing my clothes? Yes. Shirking chores? Yes. Forgetting favours I asked her? Yes. Trying to sort out my love life with some more or less the bend scheme and making it worse instead? Yes. But stealing my boyfriend? No.Adam? Did the defy 10 months mean nothing to him? What virtually all the special times we had shared together? What about all the I love yous? I felt the bubble return. That was when the phone rang. I left it to ring. It cut off, and then rang again. This time I answered howdyHello, is this the Scott house?YesWho am I speaking to?AliAlison? This is Hertfordshire policeWhat on commonwealth could the police want? A new emotion hit me Fear. I listened with trepidation.There has been an accident on the railw ay bridge Blue hybridizing Fiesta, young driver, medium build, blonde curly hair. We believe it to be your sisterLisa. It was Lisa.Where is she? Is she ok? I asked.Shes at Princess Alexandra hospital. I think its best if you get yourself up there as soon as possible. Your parents are there already.I ended the conversation.I walked over to Sarahs to see if her parents drive me. I didnt think about it, I just did it. I couldnt think. Val and Mike were out. I went over to HelensHelens mum asked no questions. I couldnt have answered even if she had. She sw fortify me in silence. It was only a twenty minute journey although it seemed to last forever. I was not crying. A strange numbness had come over me. I couldnt think or do or feel anything. There seemed to be a gap where my stomach was and my heart was beating so loudly the whole of Sawbridgeworth could probably hear.Finally we reached the hospital. Helens mum put her arm almost me and led me. Somehow she knew where to go. All my r esentful thoughts about Lisa had melted. I felt empty, small and absolutely terrified.I found myself sitting in a green chair. It was a sick green, the green you ever cut in hospitals. I could see my public address system looking grave, his arm around my mum, who was silently crying. Suddenly I noticed there was an arm around me, it was Adams. I shook it off.A medical student stood by me he held a glass of water and a small round white tablet. He was assorting me to dispatch it.Wheres Lisa? I askedThey did all they could for her. She wanted to tell you something. She unploughed calling Ali, Ali all the time she was conscious. She said that she loved you. We think she was effort to see you. She was driving very fast, the roads are icy He saidHe didnt need to tell me anymore. I knew. Lisa. Lisa was dead. Lisa was dead. It was my fault. I began to cry.Ali, take the pill. You need it It was Adams voice. I could see Charlie and Amy sitting by him, looking concern and upset. The re was something odd about that, but I couldnt figure out what.I couldnt take the pill. They didnt understand. I had killed my sister. If I hadnt gone off she never would have driven to see me. They couldnt make me take drugs to numb the throe until there was none.Alison, this is hard enough on your parents as it is, take it for them coaxed the doctorI looked to my dadAli, this is hard on all of us, especially you, take the tablet, darling he said in a hushed tone. while passed in a blur. I had no idea if it was day or night, or how long I had stayed in my room. My mum kept bringing me those white pills. I was numb. I slept, cried, and just sat for hours, overwhelmed by shock, evil and sheer emptiness.One morning my mum came in and asked me to come and see Lisas room. I followed her and my dad. For no apparent reason I was now life scared. My mum opened the door. It felt as though it symbolised something but I didnt know what. I gasped. Lisas room, usually strewn with clothes, m akeup and everything else under the sun, was tidy. Moreover all her stuff had been removed and it had been redecorated. I couldnt take it. I broke down.Lisa was interchangeable my other half, I was incomplete without her. It was the like being half dead. My dad looked at me I could see it hurt him even to do that. Would it always be like this? Would I serve as a constant reminder of Lisa?Ali, a voice called. It was a familiar voice. It was Lisa. Was I ideate? I closed my eyes and opened them again. I was lying in my bed. Lisa was shaking me.Ali, you left the party. I didnt get a chance to tell youI just looked at her, utterly bewildered. I reached out my wad and touched her.Youre alive, I murmured.She looked a me briefly as though I was insane, then carried on,Adam was waiting for you, and you didnt come. It was my fault things were going badly between you two, so I pretended to be you to make it all better. I was going to tell you, but I couldnt find you. I worked out what you saw, and Im forged.But Lisa, youre alive I stammered.This time she looked at me even more quizzically, so I explained what had happened down to every last detail.Ali, said Angie gently, it was a dream, it must have been. Were all fine, your mum and dad are out, and find Charlie moved to Belgium in August.I was totally dazed. I felt as if I had been asleep a few hundred years, instead of a few hours.So Lisa isnt dead and she never went with Adam, I said uncertainly.I cant believe you even thought such a thing exclaimed Lisa. Oh Ali, Im so sorryEveryones downstairs, Ill go down and explain. You come when youre ready. said Angie.I couldnt accommodate myself any longer. I whooped and threw my arms around Lisa, who looked shocked but pleased.My embossment was so immense. I would never hate Lisa again. I was close on euphoric. I slipped my arm through Lisas and we went downstairs.Amy and Miranda had made up some sandwiches, and after all that had happened I think we all needed them. I was facilitate incredibly tired, but I felt the sudden urge to hug everyone. My emotions were running so high. When I hugged Adam he stroked my hair and whispered, Im sorry about everything that happened. I love you.Before I knew it he was snuggling me deeply.Charlie phoned to say Happy new year.Everyone looked so happy now. As Lisa said, Its like a dream.We all laughed. It felt so good. Relief.